Should I or Should I Not?

All working mothers go through this mental struggle, whether to stop work and stay with their kids- we can never get enough of our kids growing up time!

Lately I have been thinking about this too often. One major reason why I think so is the timing of work. My work timing is from 9.30am to 7.00pm.So when I leave work at 7.00pm, I reach home in approximately  an hours time  The commutation system in Singapore is so reliable, that I can reach home in 45 minutes. Yet by the time I reach home, it is 7.50pm or sometimes later due to minor jobs at work place. This being the situation I miss tea time with kids, I miss being there for my daughter for prep time, I miss meeting my friends - and keep all due responsibilities for weekends. All I do, when I get back home is ferociously fight with kids, and also fight with hubby- because I  have this feeling that I am the only one at home facing dog-life. Thanks to almighty, I have a supportive family that can understand and accept me. 

I guess it the deprivation of time with family that makes me feel so grumpy when I am actually with them. So instead of enjoying the little time with them, I tend to be moody and am growling at every simple thing. Now readers might want to think I have some bi-polar disorder or something!!

Nope absolutely not- I bet it is the effect that my work is taking on me. So why is it I am not quitting.......sure it has got something to do with my passion for teaching. So until I find the right destination I will still have to hold on tight.......

It is still bearable! Isn't it??

Something that came more as the harsh truth than just a simple discussion.

Every one of us go through stress at some point of our lives, it is in each of our hands as to how well we handle it and don't let it mess with our lives. There are people who are extremely  happy at work, happy  with family and maybe everywhere their presence is. Even these people, may experience stress at some time in their life- could be while making a difficult decision, or when there is a deprivation of some kind. It is just that they are smart enough not to go into depression because of stress.

My passion for my job has kept me thriving. I am venturing into my tenth year of career as a lecturer- full time. All these years I have always enjoyed teaching. There may have been trying situations. But one session of lecture and interaction can make me  jump back to form. One of the subjects I love to teach my students is Project Management.

This trimester having started, on the first day of  class we were discussing about skills of a project manager- and when the point of stress management came into discussion, the class came into more lively interaction. The topic of STRESS made it more lively. Slowly we started complaining about this life that is so stressful. We spoke about Hong Kong where life has become so mechanical, with people busy with life that is so demanding at work and people have very less time for leisure. The quality time people spend with their family  has gradually diminished.

The discussion shifted towards the topic of major projects in the past, where we discussed mainly about Egypt Pyramids. Giza Pyramid- one of the Wonders of the World was built with so much tediousness. Heavy labor was involved because of movement of huge blocks of limestone over elevated levels, as the building moved higher and higher. There were no modern machinery like cranes and movers- rather it was  the work of men skilled to do the work. Though there are many theories agreeing and disagreeing on how the pyramid was built, we have to agree to one major fact that people of those times also  went through STRESS  - but physical in nature. These days however, modern machinery is involved in reducing the tediousness of labor, people still face the same STRESS- but mental in nature.It is quite hard to say which is worse, but it is time we realized the truth- STRESS is slow poison, a big time KILLER!